winter.

i love the smell of winter, it reminds me of a time where everything was more than great. it feels fresh, clean, and gives this feeling safety ( don't ask me why). i start to remember songs i've seemed to forget. i start humming, start singing softly to myself and it all just goes away. the pounding headache, the sinking feeling, gone. its this feeling of winter.

i'm just

i'm just the mess that you created

but i'm not begging for your attention

tell me when you find the time

because sadly i've been losing mine.

with wasted words and minutes spent

forgetting what i thought was kept

and please don't ask me for my words

because your not ready for the truth.

untitled.

the air is growing thin

and once again im feeling like i can't breathe

my chest feels heavy

it just wont move.

my eyes fall weak once again

im not half as strong as i claim

im not where i want to be

my only peace is hidden in the moon

when the edges burr and smear

when it's unclear

in the sky

in the deep dark blackish blue.

in that feeling of winter

when the grass is wet

as it pokes my neck

laying there creating serenity.

Signed with love.

it seems you've faded away, i lost you somewhere among the shadows and this light.
when i told you to run, you walked the other way.
i gave you directions but those heels dug in circles.
thats where you'll stay, somewhere in between contempt and ambivalence.
content with how you live, satisfied with what you had...
too late for what you could've had, you've settled.
chasing your dreams.. no more.
living .. no more.

ill send you a letter
to tell you i once cared
ill send you these words
to show you i still believe.


signed with love,
jess.

Dredg/ Good Old war/ RX bandits

click here for pictures.
I don't Know- Dredg


Window- Good Old War

I don't Know- Dredg



Decrescendo- RX Bandits

I've fallen so fast ... So fast.


Please don't let me hit the ground.

Twelve.

you remind me of a ghost
i once met.

Dear,

i'm sorry
i'm just scared.

WAKE UP!

What time could tell to many souls
in sync we live as one
run by our fear
run by the power
no one can control.
Wake up!
Stop dreaming & make believing
that fairy tales exist
said the bird to the sun
your the only light that lives
the beauty of the morning
and the magic of the night


-jess

Eleven.

you can't want nothing
and expect the world from me
yes i said the distance is killing us
but would you have it any other way?
you say you're deeply in a spell of regret
and you fear you've lost it all
i find no comfort in you hollow words

Happiness .

Anthony Fucking Green

ahh it was so hot buuutt
it was worth waiting :)

The More You Get The Less You Are- Anthony Green UC irvine

"this"

why do i care so much about this,
whatever THIS may be.
i'm unsure,
its unclear.

Alone.

the loneliest fucking feeling
that emptiness feeling in my stomach
restless.
insecure.


i hate not knowing.